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That's right.  11 days until I leave the 'burbs.  Will I ever come back?  Only time and money (well, my lack of it) will tell.

The things I will miss:
-driving to Chicago with Jesse on cold, rainy nights to see 2*Sweet, and getting lost.
-driving pretty much everywhere to see 2*Sweet, and getting lost.
-everywhere in DuPage county taking 20-30 minutes to get to.
-accidentally running into my new favorite band
-all the friends I've made
-having a car
-being only 2 hours away from my reality escape (aka, my sister's apartment in Milwaukee)
-my dad's dinners
-my mom's advice, whether it's solicited or not
-being close to the action


Charleston, here I come.  The town will never be the same again.

It's a little bit silly, but I kind of feel proud of my friends.  I mean, these people are going on tours, having people spend money just to see their faces.......it's amazing.  Some of these people I've known since they were in their slightly-chubby, awkward phase, and now they're off, conquering the better part of the United States.  And, thanks to the internet, some of their fans are even abroad.

Man, these kids have balls.  Here I am, aspiring to be someone in just the background, and there they are, putting their heart and soul out there through a microphone in front of full audiences.  It's crazy.

Sometimes I try to imagine myself in their place, being on a stage, doing god knows what.  It just doesn't fit for me.  I get too scared.  I won't even sing full out in the shower.  lol.  Maybe that's why I want to be a journalist so badly?  To be around the excitement but not caught up in it?  Maybe.

I like people not knowing my name or where I'm from.  I like keeping my livejournal private because some things just don't need to be shared with the world.  Besides, how do I explain to my mom that most of my friends are on the internet?  Weird.  I like to have flesh-and-blood people around me instead of just pictures in shitty lighting.  I like people wondering who I am when I talk to these certain people, or even better, not even having me on their radar.  It's just too much.  I couldn't handle it if I had 'fans' or 'haters'.  I mean, I probably do, but at least I'm not aware of it.  No, I'm not saying that I'm popular or whatever.  I wouldn't ever call myself one of 'those' people.  I don't want to be known for having famous friends.  That's just.....lame.  My friends know who they are, and that's good enough for me, even if I don't really get to see them that much anymore.

And now we come to define the word "Friendship".  See, a friend to me is someone who I can talk to outside of the everyday whatever.  People  I can trust and have fun with.  People who are honest with me, even if it hurts my feelings.  Someone who knows when I need my space and when to invade my space.  So, these friends I'm talking about?  They're not just people I see when I go to shows.  They are people I go to for advice, and let them know that they can come to me, too.  They are people that I care about outside of the music they play or the stories they come up with.  I love them for who they are when they are not surrounded by the image.

I'm not trying to be one of those people.  You know, like those kids who are all "I knew who Fall Out Boy was before they made it big, so therefore, I'm cool and you're shit."  Fuck that noise.  No way.  That's not what this is about.  This is just a chick from the 'burbs who is appreciative and proud of the people she knows.  I'm not saying I'm better than anyone.  As a matter of fact, most of you are probably better than me, because you get to see them more than I do. 

So, who the hell do I think I am?  I'm this chick from the 'burbs of Chicago.  I love music and writing.  I love my friends.  I believe that people should do things not because they want to, but because they don't know any other way.  I'm really just this hybrid prep/punk who works at a preppy clothing store and listens to The Misfits on my way to work.  I'm all over the place, but I'm nothing special.  So, don't focus on me.  Instead, focus on the message, and the message is that my friends, these people I care about, are doing something that most of us are too afraid to even think about doing.


Wow, that came out way sentimental and shit.

Alright, so I had this big, long talk with my advisor about my future.  Basically, I'm about 4-6 years behind, and so I need to join as many things as possible to catch up.

I decided that, since I'm minoring in Public Relations anyway, I'm going to add the 2*S Street Team and the DxS Street Team onto my resume.  Why?  It's not like I don't promote for either, and it's not like I don't get my ass out to as many shows/readings as I can.  Besides, I'm not ashamed to admit that, yes, I promote for a bunch of weird dudes who touch other dudes and a 32 year old self-proclaimed asshole.  Hey, if it gets me a decent job, I'm there.

So, in essence, I will need some help this summer, mostly with filling up lots of space in my portfolio.  If you need a review, promo piece, anything written up, let me know asap.

The funny part is, I know that nobody reads this.  Poor advertising, I know.

Till next time, fuckers.

--SJ

Hey celebrities!  Guess what?  There is one person in the world who doesn't care about you.....and that would be me.

Yeah, that's right, I said it.  Listen, I don't care who you're exposing your no-no parts to, and I don't care if you go to rehab.  It's not our business.  It's not MY business.  Therefore, I don't care.

Hey tabloids, look, they're people too.  And just because their name is known doesn't mean that they are more important than the rest of us.  We are all creatures living on this planet.  We all have something to offer.  We are all special, even if we aren't unique.

Get over it and get a real job.

Jack Off Jill is in my secret stash of favorite bands.  I mean, how awesome is it that a group of fucking chicks makes such angry, awesome music?  If I was ever in a band, I might want to be in this kind of group. 

See, I look cute.  I get this.  I look like one of those Abercrombie kids.  I live in the fuckin' suburbs, for godsake!  I work at American Eagle, and most of my clothes are from there.  I look like the poster child for "bringing home a good one".  Oh man, you kids have it so wrong.

Favorite bands?  The Misfits, Few And The Proud, Jack Off Jill, 2*Sweet, Saves The Day, Joy Division, Troubled Hubble, etc.  Yeah, a weird mix I admit, but not exactly the Suzie Sunshine image.

Sometimes I think that people would have a heart attack if I wore my Misfits shirt to class.

However, it's a little fun to have secrets.




I'm only doing this because I'm bored, working in a few hours, and Myspace is down.  LOL.